feeling cold in the summer heat and i don’t take lightly to threats on my mental this feeling’s essential lawn sprinklers and bucket hats i melted all the ice cream we had the snow’s melted too i woke up having dreamt about you i’m so scared is this our first date tomorrow? cold summer snows won’t return and i’m happy i’m glad that i won’t ever forget about you we’re so entwined you stay on my mind all the time i’m so in love can’t shake the feelings i’m feeling for you (oh god) i’m so damn scared of losing touch or falling out of contact i’m only a child scared of losing friends again oh god face your feelings you gotta face your feelings face your feelings you gotta face your feelings when you grow up, grow up just lock my door you need to “grow up, grow up” “you’re over her” repeated phrases in my head alliteration, my homestead i’ll ride it out, i'll ride it out, i’ll ride it out until im dead repeated phrases in my head empty echoes of texts unread i’ll ride it out, i'll ride it out, i’ll ride it out, i’ll ride it out we’re so entwined you stay on my mind all the time i’m so in love can’t shake the feelings i’m feeling for you (oh god) i’m so damn scared of losing touch or falling out of contact i’m only a child scared of losing friends again oh god cracked screens are the price of love cracked screens are the price of love cracked screens are the price of love cracked screens are the price of love cracked screens are the price of love cracked screens are the price of love stuck on you stuck on you stuck on you stuck on you when i get the when i get the bag will you come through? running out the back to your place too sneaking out late just to talk to you i’m running out of options called you twice didn’t answer i, i’m looking at your face through the rearview mirror can’t let go of the past that easily hey michael won't you talk to me hey michael please call me back stuck on you stuck on you stuck on you stuck on you when i get the when i get the bag will you come through? the money means shit without you i live off of price tags, i live off the price tags and i i need another option keep spending all my options i’m looking at your face through the rearview mirror can’t let go of the past that easily hey michael won't you talk to me hey michael please call me back would you be so kind as to fall in love with me? you see, i’m trying i know you know that i like you but that's not enough so if you will, please fall in love with me

part i: so much time so much time lost to the waves lost to the waves so much time so much time giving up on the days losing touch with your ways i’ve been a terrible brother, a terrible son and laziness is the opposite of trying to have fun i've been a terrible friend to you, an unfunny joke and happiness is the antithesis of falling in love there’s no way i’m going home empty handed i’ve disappointed enough to learn i am burning i am burning to death i am trusting i am trusting to death i am so naive and i think you knew that there’s no way i’m coming home empty handed i am not coming home tonight sorry for all the pain i caused you, dad

part ii: i stopped by your house why'd you change the locks on me? i stopped by your house i must have missed you i stopped by your house i snuck out just to be locked out i stopped by your house your garage door was open i decided to take ride in your moms car i drove it down the block but the engine wouldn’t stop the engine wouldn’t stop i crashed that shit just down the road the steering wheel was on my chest there was glass on the pavement glass on the pavement and when the cops pulled over they told me i was gonna be dead and when the cops pulled over they told me i was already dead but when you came home and saw the car in pieces you only blame yourself you should only blame yourself

part iii: i took an uber back home i took an uber back home refracted my way out the darkness in your house head out the water i pulled my head out the water i took an uber back home i took an uber back home no hindsight in 2020 got my sight checked that's precious to me need my sight so i can still see your face out the rearview mirror crashed that shit, yet you still feel near won’t you bring it back to the start now back on track now, won't you reply? won’t you bring it back to the start now back on track now, i miss you dear alice won’t you text me first? i don’t wanna keep on texting first and i know it’s silly but please forgive me, just please bare with me now dear alice you know that i like you but i don’t wanna keep on bothering you and i know it’s silly but please forgive me, just please bare with me now and you tried to make it big but you wound up back home in your mom’s old home in your parent’s backyard, where your childhood lives where your innocence is, look back and your hollywood dreams keep shutting you out back in your hometown, back in michigan now put the camera down, pick up that pencil push that paper, and don’t look back and you said you’d make millions what a joke, were you kidding? you’ll stay in that bedroom, confined forever eating home cooked meals, doesn’t sound so bad enjoy your time here, you know she loves you and you had your fucking time in the limelight just another gaslight, filming silly scenes in the moonlight directions weren’t clear so you wound up back here they don’t love you my dear, you will wind up back here but that’s okay, you tried at least and that's okay, at least you tried but that’s okay, you’ve been giving it your all and that's okay, you gave it your all i get so jealous fomo, fomo don’t talk about it saul is a terrible friend to me i get so jealous fomo, fomo don’t talk about it it’s all been a terrible year for me i get so jealous other friends, other friends please don’t mention to me i get so jealous other friends, other friends when i have no right to be end on a major chord you didn’t end on a major chord end on a major chord you didn’t end on a major chord

part iv: (i lost my mind over words that i can’t say) i’m lost in the mornings, please say goodnight i’m caught up on you can’t say goodbye i still remember your face in the nighttime i still remember your face, don’t say goodbye i still love you i’m not over it yet i still love you i’m not over it yet i still love you i’m not over it yet

put the products in the bag and pedal to metal, i am so excited to get out of town my love for you revoked and fight with almost everything, it’s alright, it’s alright what happened to that handsome boy who was overjoyed about his brand new sneakers what happened to him? where'd he go? he was only 17 lived and died a teen his wheels weren't turning he died in a car crash he lost his life to some boy from michigan he stopped by his house earlier that day he must have missed him, he must have what happened to that handsome boy who was overjoyed what happened to him? where'd he go? he was only 17 i was 16 when i met you i was 16 when i met you i was 16 when i was 16 when i met you i was 16 when i met you i was 16 when what happened to that handsome boy who was overjoyed about his brand new sneakers what happened to him? where'd he go? he was only 17 feeling cold in the summer heat and i don’t take lightly to threats on my mental this feeling’s essential lawn sprinklers and bucket hats i melted all the ice cream we had the snow’s melted too learn to to quiet down i don’t wanna talk learn to quiet down learn to leave to leave it all alone and i don’t wanna be friends anymore and i don’t wanna talk to you anymore there’s no use complaining there’s no use complaining it just keeps on raining it just keeps on and there’s no use complaining cause it keeps on raining and i feel the shaking waterstone, waterstone you are not who i am i am more than you waterstone, waterstone you dull out my colours i feel alone so alone i’m done being jealous i will get out the car you don’t mean shit me i could live without it i can live without it so keep on doubting me i need that energy so clueless, so clueless just write me my song i only need myself

i can tell something’s not right with you am i bothering you? i can tell something’s not right with you Is he stuck in your mind again? ignore the pain you feel oh it's up to you, or you could feel it through i don’t know what to say or what could comfort you oh it’s always you its deeply sad to think about it too much had too much of whatever substance you felt like doing we reach towards the ceiling the room’s capsizing so say with me now its deeply sad to think about it too much let’s have too much of whatever substance you feel like doing forget out feelings the room means nothing so stay here with me now it’s all good my back is it’s all good my neck is it’s all good my throat is it’s all good it’s all killing me singing another verse the only thing keeping me sane uni starts next month and i’m scared to forget waking another day good morning texts no more, no we don’t text no more how do i say i miss you in french scared of responsibilities maybe this music thing will work out for me and i had to kill off that other guy he wasn’t me anymore he wasn’t me anymore its deeply sad to think about it too much had too much of whatever substance you felt like doing we reach towards the ceiling the room’s capsizing so say with me now its deeply sad to think about it too much let’s have too much of whatever substance you feel like doing forget out feelings the room means nothing so stay here with me now it’s all good my back is it’s all good my neck is it’s all good my throat is it’s all good it’s all killing me i look into the mirror i'm not okay in this body i find the motivation at night but in the morning i’ll forget oh i feel so alone am i unlovable? am i unlovable? i look into the mirror i have problems with my kidneys i tend to get real jealous and i get scared people don’t need me i wanted to change i’m trying to change and i know that you notice the way i’m behaving its deeply sad to think about it too much had too much of whatever substance you felt like doing we reach towards the ceiling the room’s capsizing so say with me now its deeply sad to think about it too much let’s have too much of whatever substance you feel like doing forget out feelings the room means nothing so stay here with me now it feels like the end of world it’s all coming down it’s all crashing down now it feels like the end of world every emotion is apocalyptic

where were you when the engine broke and the wheels werent turning and we almost died? where were you when the sun shined green and time had froze before our eyes where were you when i needed you? i said where were you when i needed you? i can’t help but imagine my life had i not met you said i wouldn’t miss you oh you're in control of it all wish i hadn’t met you you were a waste of time my time subsided i can’t hide it i miss talking to your dog and your mom, she was nice i remember she made me food when i stayed overnight cause my mom kicked me out it’s all good my back is it’s all good my neck is it’s good my throat is it's all good it's all killing me i hoped it was a small thing i don’t know what i did that night i guess i haven't taken the time to reflect on it that much i’m getting real of tired of metaphors when all i really wanna say is michael i miss you i’m getting real of tired of metaphors when all i really wanna say is alice, i love you rode in a cop car too fast to my best friend's house that evening we don’t talk anymore, but i thank him for that i skipped out on dinner that night and left his house early to walk down your street and we made out for the first time you’re still obsessed over that theatre kid i heard he overdosed, i heard he overdosed you’re still obsessed over that theatre boy he meant so much to you, i’ve never seen you cry as hard as you did when he died

everyone says there’s so much fish in the sea so much so that i don’t think there’s any room for me no point in crying over a couple spoiled nights remember your face in the morning, in the daylight boys just wanna have fun oh boys just wanna have fun boys just wanna have fun oh boys just wanna have fun what's wrong going home empty handed you can't disappoint much more than you have your father he loved you, and you told him you were gay he took his time, but he never was okay and when your dad died, your mother had no one you brother was convicted years ago yet you spoke me soothing words in your french je t'aime, je t'aime, tu me manques, tu me manques and i could produce this song some more but i would rather just leave it alone and i know i’ve said mean words about you and this part, it hurts to sing boys just wanna have fun oh boys just wanna have fun oh michael i wanted to have fun and michael, where have you gone? (untranscribed)