part i : hello what goes under the moon? is it logical? is it fantasy? cold stones are all that i found is it goodbye now? or just a hello? should i care about the sea? is it what i love? cant u fucking see? so say goodbye to the snow it's only the start hello's just a start if i'm honest i miss the way your voice sounds and if i'm honest i miss the way u calm me down part ii : welcome i'm cruising above the clouds welcome to my album (a lifetime of this, i've lived a lifetime of bliss)

why would i let you drown? i have proved i love you keep the engine warm cause i will come back and i will drive sailing cross the open water i feel so alive i caught the wind on my sails and i’m finally flying it’s such a great adventure i feel so awake i loved the wind in my face i love the way i felt when you called out my name you saw what i let you see you’re sawyer with adeline you’re michael with roosevelt i’m chasing those rainbows and i move across horizon i’m just a shooting star! i love the way you made me feel, i love the way you made me feel passed out on my bedroom floor it’s just the price that i pay for you being so great for you being so great i don’t deserve it swear but i will make it somewhere i will catch a break some day someday i will make it there oh i lost my mind over word that i can’t say you trapped me in bed today i woke up in shambles i had a weird ass dream you still slept when i screamed there are still words i haven’t spoke and i am dying to scream you always asked “what’s wrong?” you always asked “what’s wrong?” i’m a popstar, writing in my fivestar i broke shit, waiting til the cops come one time before i leave in the morning one time before i leave in the morning i will not change for another person no, everything must end and everything thing must survive i will not yield for another person now i have reached the end close my eyes to see the light i have no use for this fucking bedroom i will not sleep i will not cry i will not yield i will not die i will succeed i am who i am live the life of a wallflower carry that torch out to darkness please set fire to the past i know that you know that i love you i know that you know that i love you please just try to be nice my, my feelings are fragile could have been a hippie summer but i cold feet oh, oh you were right there’s no use being caught up on the past like where’s the snow when you need her in your head like like this

i'm a teenage nightmare it's a silly teenage problem i don't think u would care i'm a teenage nightmare i'm a teenage nightmare and maybe i'll grow out of it the last three years were fucking bliss birthday parties, and my first kiss sad times in that one apartment i don't think i'll ever forget it the last three years were fucking bliss i just wanna stay like this high school drama, no punishment high school drama, no punishment i'm a teenage nightmare it's a silly teenage problem i don't think u would care i'm a teenage nightmare i'm a teenage nightmare and i don't think i'll grow out of it i wanna go home, i wanna go home, i wanna go home, i wanna go home i'm a teenage nightmare it's a silly teenage problem i don't think u would care i'm a teenage nightmare i'm a teenage nightmare and i maybe i'll grow out of it i'm a teenage nightmare it's a silly teenage problem i don't think u would care i'm a teenage nightmare i'm a teenage nightmare and i don't think i'll grow out of it felt like only yesterday i was 12 years old and now i'm old felt like only yesterday i was 12 years old and maybe i'll grow out of it these days are over, no need to explain 117 lifetimes of bliss i can't get enough of this feeling, will haunt me forever i'd rather stay here forever

last summer was the worst in my life but best in my mind i’m unsure if i want to be friends can’t i wait till the end? oh, summer the leaves are green and the sun will shine all over oh popstar you spend your cash and its leaves you dry, you play your songs and it leaves you dry oh adam your love will leave, and she ate fruit yet you hold her hand when she comes through oh demeter persephone and you! me the light is slowly falling my eyes they, need to sleep spend most of my nights telling myself that it’s alright spend most of my nights denying it and you spend most your nights with that other guy and i spend most my nights thinking of you and if you really wanted to talk you would reach out cause i’m sick and tired of texting you first oh, summer the leaves are green and the sun will shine all over oh popstar you spend your cash and its leaves you dry, you play your songs and it leaves you dry oh adam your love will leave, and she ate fruit yet you hold her hand when she comes through oh demeter persephone and you! and me i’m a popstar writing lyrics in my fivestar drowning down by the poolside met a boy from the wayside wrote an album or two about you how about you? i’m a popstar writing lyrics in my fivestar in the back of a cop car take me back up to sam’s house take me back to the theatre where we met for the first time where i left them early and then we met for the last time

lightning in a bottle it’s all i wanted a bottle rocket lightning in a bottle is all you wanted a starburnt child when i was a kid i read about the stars and wondered where they are i wonder where they are spent all of my life in the city hoping one day that you’d need me and you one day you would call me up and i’d be right there for you rose gold, silver lining in my eyes thoughts of leaving, there’s a bottle rocket we were driving down the bow river, whizzing by buildings surrounding us we were all just an act; a distant memory (in years) wasted all of that time with that bullshit, it’s hard to decide should i just wait here? will it come back? bottle rocket, pocket my flashbacks put the products on hold put the products on hold waste ten years of my life, grow old waste ten years of my life, grow old shooting star up in the distance run it back, run it back circles, run in circles would drop a hundred million dollars just to feel alive would die a hundred million times just to feel alive run it back, run it back had a crisis, heart attack you avoid me! i would fight me! where’s the snow? where’d she go? melted, dripping on the floor leave your shoes by the door she's a narcissist with an empty face i need a warm a embrace and i never died, and my body drowned and our time was short forever summer bound and oh solar sails are free, but the sun won’t shine and i’m stuck in place and i loved barbed wire when it kept them back but now i can’t move and a rocket needs its momentum

i’m a popstar writing lyrics in my fivestar driving up to where my friends are all this drama feeling bizarre gonna die before i’m 18 all the spending didn’t save me held her hand, she forgave me my friends would never weigh me down with invitations to some stupid fucking party they adore me, and i love them love’s a strong word to describe those you are complacent with oxygen deprived my brain is barely functioning i’m a popstar writing lyrics in my fivestar drowning down by the poolside met a boy from the wayside wrote an album or two about you how about you? my brain would never slow me down to the point where i can think straight you and i, we’re a stalemate make decisions on a whim i would tear off a limb just to feel the fucking the wind in my sails, i can’t wait i’m a popstar writing lyrics in my fivestar in the back of a cop car take me back up to sam’s house take me back to the theatre where we met for the first time where i left them early and then we met for the last time

me and all my friends are dead inside don't u hide from me i'm running back to the start again, i'll start again with u i love all things i do alone, but u still u wanna talk the rain, it washes down your tears i'll wipe your tears right off hello again, my friend it's been a while, how's it been? school is almost over we can talk more soon are u ready for the split? after summer i'm gone too i'm scared we'll grow distant i'm scared we might fall apart (i'm tryna catch a break, tryna catch a break) me and all my friends are dead inside don't u hide from me i'm running back to the start again, i'll start again with u i love all things i do alone, but u still u wanna talk the rain, it washes down your tears i'll wipe your tears right

do u want wanna go outside? it was so long ago, we were the best of friends tell me something, do u hate your life? i don't think i could help can u see clearly now? (i'll do what u want) every day just feels the same i really hate my life i should just quit and die u don't mean nothing yeah, u are my light, i could never forget all of those sleepless nights do u honestly think i was kidding when i said i loved u when u were mine everyday is sharp edges but don't forget i love u you're always mine do u want wanna go outside? it was so long ago, we were the best of friends tell me something, do u hate your life? i don't think i could help can u see clearly now? (i'll do what u want) every day just feels the same i really hate my life i should just quit and die u don't mean nothing yeah, u are my light, i could never forget all of those sleepless nights i don't ever wanna leave u and everything's still the same don't think it means much but i still love u all the same

all this time i've been running away out in a spaceship, lost in a daze 45, turn 17 last year i've overcome my fears don't u worry no more i'll hold open the door for u won't u see me outside? run away, twisted point of view woke up having dreamt of u closed window, fuck the sunlight, no view rose gold tinted point of view maybe i should just run away too to mars there's a garden in the skies i would like to vocalize how i feel inside, how i feel inside you're an object of despise fall apart cause all the lies watch my dreams die, watch my dreams die all this time i've been running away out in a spaceship, lost in a daze 45 turn 17 last year i've overcome my fears there's a garden in the skies i would like to vocalize you're an object of despise fall apart cause all the lies

don't u go yet, don't u leave me alone i can't even breathe no more, no more i'm sorry, sorry, don't go, oh and i love u, love u, don't go, please don't go

this love isn't real, something i could feel don't even wait don't even wait don't even wait on me the sun and rising an i cant keep dreaming slowly falling and i think that i'm losing control can u feel it? i think i'm dying why do i feel this? i feel like nothing i've been trying look for some meaning life feels empty, but i keep on giving away can u feel it? i think i'm dying why do i feel this? i feel like nothing don't even wait don't even wait don't even wait on me

slow down, don't leave yet i'm drowning 3 seasons around me don't falter, stay confident u'll do great, you're the best there is i hope i can do u proud again, again summer's over, oh no summer's ending, and i'm terrified we'll fall apart

i’ve just been chasing rainbows it’s never gonna end sawyer and adeline michael and roosevelt we’ve just been chasing rainbows it’s never gonna end we’ll never make it there we’re caught up on the past it was never meant to last like chasing rainbows, the hedonic treadmill is the idea that all human beings have a set level of happiness known as the hedonic set point despite major life events, positive or negative, everyone eventually returns to their hedonic set point, which to my knowledge, cannot be raised or lowered the only thing we can do is move forwards

i thought that i i thought that i i thought that i i thought that i you thought that i you thought that i you thought that i you thought that i you thought that i’d let you die? you’re sawyer, with adeline you’re michael, with roosevelt i’m chasing those rainbows and, i’m chasing we’re chasing i’m chasing we’re running in circles she play her cards, lay down the four i’ve seen it all, i’ve gotta go i’m done with that gossip, baby i’m done with that gossip, baby half empty bottles on the floor nothing to do you make me bored i’m not going to that birthday party i’m not going to that birthday party they say you went too far but you won’t come back but you won’t come back i ran to the forest at night and i loved it there and i loved it there you saw what i let you see never did come back never questioned me you saw what i let you see never did come back never questioned me i love the way you dyed your hair i love the way your momma talked i love the way everything went i love the way it all burned down i love the way you spoke my name i love the french you spoke to me i love the way you broke me down i love the way you made it hurt i miss the way you dyed your hair i miss the way your momma talked i miss the way your dog would bark i miss the way that you would cry i miss the way you that spoke my name i miss the french that you spoke to me i miss the way you broke my heart i miss the way you tore me up you thought that i’d let you die? you’re sawyer with adeline you’re michael with roosevelt and i’m still stuck here chasing rainbows

emma, run away ill push these people aside lives so gray i think that i'll never die u'll never see me fall and you're gonna need some reasons and the seasons don't change, don't change i thought i was falling apart but maybe just running away i cant breathe now i cant see this change and maybe i'm losing my mind so what if i blew it away emma, run away ill push these people aside i will pray i hope that i'll never emma, run away ill push these people aside i will pray i hope that i'll never die

emma, won't u talk to me i've been waiting for so long wondering what i'd say when u finally come along put pressure on my lungs gold blood is running through my veins tired of all this burden worried, and the trouble you're starting why can i feel my heartbeat through my skin, you're everything i need water rushes through the rocks in the distance cold shoulders and the heat u've been missing afraid of blood, i'm afraid of love heart aches might break me yet u call me crazy "oh that doesn't mean shit" "won't amount to shit" guess i'm calling it quits now i'm not dealing with it well, no well known, i'm losing touch with everything i love and everything i wanted dreams all dying one trick pony one stop shop and 27 dollars late night skype calls feeling lonely won't u stop and text me "baby" get off the phone get, get off the phone put pressure on my lungs gold blood is running through my veins tired of all this burden worried, and the trouble you're starting why can i feel my heartbeat through my skin, you're everything i need water rushes through the rocks in the distance cold shoulders and the heat u've been missing at the center of everything is heat breaking point is reached no coming back from this water is crashing and my blood is boiling and everything is still the same damn way i wonder why birds choose to stay when they could fly away from here i know i'd leave if given the chance i know i'd leave and i wouldn't look back but still i fucking stay no words leave my mouth u say that u love me and i can't get out u shouldn't care what others think u know u look great u finally escape everything that u ha-

fuck everything! i’ve been up and down as fuck wearing makeup that’s a look paint my nails, look cute as fuck i’m no longer concerned with how you feel about me! tell her, tell her i was scared tell her, tell her i was scared i don’t need the labels i don’t give a fuck! throw away my money i just need myself making music in my bedroom could care less what she does to him but i should to get to bed soon rose coloured, rose gold i feel like a popstar writing lyrics in my fivestar take me where the lights are i’m so sick and tired of expectations, their wearing me down i’m so sick and tired of my fucking friends, we fight till end fuck everything! i’ve been up and down as fuck wearing makeup that’s a look paint my nails, look cute as fuck i’m no longer concerned with how you feel about me! tell her, tell her i was scared tell her, tell her i was scared rose coloured, rose gold i feel like a popstar spend my money like it’s stolen i don’t care, the cheques keep rolling and he left me, idk where probably breathing cleaner air try my best, a hollow point driving fast, fatigued as fuck fuck everything! i’ve been up and down as fuck wearing makeup that’s a look paint my nails, look cute as fuck i’m no longer concerned with how you feel about me! tell her, tell her i was scared tell her, tell her i was scared rose coloured, rose gold i feel like a popstar spend my money like it’s stolen i don’t care, the cheques keep rolling and he left me, idk where probably breathing cleaner air try my best, a hollow point driving fast, fatigued as fuck

oh i feel like i'm drowning in my own fears and it seems like we're dying by design when will u learn when will u let go u should know better than that she's out of your league and u know u should walk away but u can't help yourself and i know all your secrets and u cant bury it now and u don't understand how brilliant u are and u cant help but treat me the way that u are but every time i talk to u u make me feel some way and every time i talk to u i cant help but stay online a bit longer i know that i should sleep the sound me quickly typing head rush into the deep and every time u leave me on read i feel so depressed just don't be shocked i could cut u off so fast and not give u the chance to even respond u don't realize the pain u cause when u don't respond big crush, bigger dreams and i'm done every time u leave me on read i feel so depressed just don't be shocked i could cut u off so fast and not give u the chance to even respond u don't realize the pain u cause when u don't respond big crush, bigger dreams and i'm done every time u leave me on read i feel so depressed just don't be shocked i could cut u off so fast and not give u the chance to even respond u don't realize the pain u cause when u don't respond big crush, bigger dreams and i'm done

poetry across the wall i'm stuck between the rise and fall, the moon the stars the earth is spinning i don't know why i'm feeling this way, so down why am i so fucking loud? don't know how to stop the sounds i can't keep quiet at night i can't go back to fucking bed i know i'd love the fucking shores you're everything that i adore feel like i've finally found my place i don't know how to stop in space i really don't know how to dance but i'm so down to fucking learn so we can dance together hey, i don't remember days when i was all alone we're always on the phone and when i'm down and low you're always there for me i love your company i'd do anything for u fall in my arms and sleep watch over light years away but we still keep in touch i don't think we need much to keep going in love, speaking of love, poetry across the wall i'm stuck between the rise and fall, the moon the stars the earth is spinning i don't know why i'm feeling this way, so down why am i so fucking loud? don't know how to stop the sounds i can't keep quiet at night i can't go back to fucking bed i know i'd love the fucking shores you're everything that i adore felt like only yesterday i was twelve years old and now i'm old

the devil resides in the black mirror that you carry in your pocket he welcomes you with open arms and a basket full of hearts he watches you so carefully, he watches from your arms he grooms you oh so slowly, and he whips you when you sleep i’ve grown so accustomed to the beatings i think i kind of like it now i get so caught up on my touch screen though it pains me to type this out it’s just memory we shared i never chose a hill to die on it’s just a relic of the future we were never meant to last i’ve grown so accustomed to the beatings i think i kind of like it now i get so caught up on my touch screen though it pains me to type this out it’s just memory we shared i never chose a hill to die on logic, and emotion, love spread through our circuits i don’t know how to hold it, we were never meant love this way critical compulsions, airing out our problems acting for attention, i hate the way that blue bird chirps magnify our problems, blowing up my mentions pictures of our tears, your pain is to share the golden globes are waiting, just step up to the spotlight get eaten by the masses, just give until you can't no more tell me what you want right now cause i don’t know what you really mean tell me what you want right now cause i don’t know what you really mean tell me what you’re looking for cause i don’t know what you really want tell me what you’re looking for cause i don’t know what you really want these days i’m not looking for a getaway stuck here, but i like it here feed off of so much drama it’s like you like being mean to me these days i’m not looking for a getaway stuck here, but i like it here feed off of so much drama it’s like you like being mean to me i’ve grown so accustomed to the beatings i think of like it now i get so caught up on my touch screen t pains me to type this out it’s just memory we shared i never chose a hill to die on it’s just a relic of the future we were never meant to last

sawyer and adeline michael and roosevelt run off to the forest, away from the city i just had to get a break away from : sawyer and adeline michael and roosevelt you four keep on, bugging me more as the days keep passing and i’m not over it it’s just a matter of time before i leave move to italy, never see me again not third wheeling, i’m goddamn rockstar feel like a popstar, writing in my five star hometown, won’t you come around moved out, i don’t need you now, caught me slowing down gotta come down, gotta come down doesn’t matter what she do, he got me feeling blue he got me feeling blue of course i’m gonna miss now, of course i’m gonna miss i wrote it on my page and she wrote it on my wrist: i’m a popstar, writing in my five sar feel like a rockstar, goddamn superstar paint my nails, call me cute watch the numbers on my phone watch me kill my own dreams for you you’re sawyer, you’re adeline you’re michael wth roosevelt and i’m stuck here chasing those rainbows for you you’re sawyer with adeline you’re michael wth roosevelt and i’m stuck here chasing those rainbows for you i’m a popstar, feel like a rockstar writing in my fivestar, goddamn superstar paint my nails, call me cute watch the numbers on my phone watch me kill my own dreams for you write it on my wrist, write it on my wrist it just don’t matter when i miss just don’t hate me when i leave just don’t hate me when i leave

its all good, its over now they're leaving and so are my feelings hope, seasons are changing and so are the people (do i deserve love? do i deserve love?) you're all amazing but now it's goodbye all this time in brooklyn has made me bitter (so angry all the time, so angry all the time) i'm not better than i was before i keep on running from the shit that i'm scared of i'm not scared of all these things no more (alright baby, it's alright) walk the stage, u know it don't feel right without u by my side, without u by my side (alright baby, it's alright) holding on to something that's long gone can't bear to let this go i hope u understand (alright baby, it's alright) memories slip out the back of my mind 3 years were fun, and we're still holding on (alright baby, it's alright) memories fall from the roof of my room all things must end, and i still lean on u we've all grown up it's graduation time it's time to look back at all of the years we spent happy and summer-bent summer camp, summer break heartbreaks and my first kiss i know that i'll miss this EVERYTHING COMES TO AN END the weather's getting worse huh yeah, it keeps raining

oh we lost track of our dreams i can't count to three only see seventeen oh a soundtrack for our lives we can't compromise our fears are our demise oh i hope u understand i feel like we've grown up i think we're done here

part i : goodbye don't u fall asleep there's not much we can do in situations (like this) falling further we lost track of our dreams rushing to something i don't believe in, ghosts i don't believe in ghosts the feeling there's still something i don't wanna go home don't wanna go home so soon winter sadness school is ending summer sadness finally melting snow running back to the start feel like i'm losing it all feel like i'm losing my shit again wash away your tears in the rain its not over, just a start its not over, just a start though u cry, your memories remain it's not over just a start it's not over, i still love u the same damn way it's the same damn way as it was high school is over and i hate that we've grown up wash away your tears in the rain its not over, just a start its not over, just a start though u cry, your memories remain it's not over just a start it's not over, i still love u the same (u keep on running away) damn way it's the same damn way as it was high school is over and i hate that we've grown up everybody's moving on everyone on but me so hard for me to let go i'll drag this song on forever forever part ii : what a day fuck oh what a problem, what a hard choice to make how can i feel good, when i can't love u oh what a day what a wonderful day what a long fucking day shall we go home? shall we go home?

this is not a love song i’m so irrational at night what’s your creative process? i tend to get real sad so i can write my songs in bed oh my walls make fun of me so i cover them with pictures and no matter what i buy oh i still want to - no use fighting with it nothing’s wrong it wasn’t love love is erosion it was just a summer, nothing more and the city breathed me life and i’m starting to breathe again and the fresh summer snow is finally gone and everything dies nothing survived the fallout but that’s okay because i don’t need you now i don’t need you now it wasn't love and it never will be but thats okay because i don’t need you now i don’t need you now i caught the wind on my sails and i’m finally flying away, that’s okay rose coloured, rosy skin in the suburbs of the city pease go without me when grow up i‘ll be moving to the same damn woods where we skipped stones, it was our last date not out of some sentiment or attachment, no just because i like the place i’ll go into my attic, the one inside my headspace and i’ll burn all the boxes of you those words they don’t mean shit when i’m with you i’m here, but don’t love you just give me the date and the time and i’ll help you, your stone cold demeanor it’s hard to get used to, but i don’t need that much time it was never love i caught the wind on my sails and i’m finally flying oh i’m finally gliding, i just keep on writing just keep swimming, just sleep, just keep swimming away just keep swimming, just sleep, just keep swimming away winter sadness school is ending summer sadness finally melting snow running back to the start feel like i'm losing it all feel like i'm losing my shit again feel like i've finally found my place i don't know how to stop in space i really don't know how to dance but i'm so down to fucking learn so we can dance together hey, i don't remember days when i was all alone we're always on the phone and when i'm down and low you're always there for me i love your company i'd do anything for u fall in my arms and sleep watch over light years away but we still keep in touch i don't think we need much to keep going in love, speaking of love, i caught the wind on my sails and i’m finally flying away it was just a car crash the broken glass was nothing it took awhile but the payoff was huge oh what night and a lifetime of bliss i’m running to the woods and running from the city oh the suburbs, they haunt me next be more subtle baby if i get into a car crash, save me you thought that i’d let you die? you’re sawyer with adeline you’re michael with roosevelt and i’m stuck here chasing rainbows you thought that i’d let you die? you’re sawyer with adeline you’re michael with roosevelt and i’m stuck here chasing rainbows no more! no more, chasing rainbows no more i caught the wind on my sails and i’m finally flying away it was just a car crash the broken glass was nothing i love you